Sorry

Just a very short blog entry here for now. I’m sorry that I have not been keeping up with the blog. I am truly in a deep dark depression at this time and I’m finding it very hard to just manage each day. I do not have the will or energy to write any blogs at this time. I hope that the depression will subside soon and that I will get back into this again. But for now, please bear with me. And if you are a person who prays, I would appreciate your prayers. I’m in a very bad place right now. So I apologize for my absence. I’m not ignoring the blog per se, I just don’t have it in me right now.

Thanks for understanding.

corey

Catch-up

16 August 2008

 

Well, it’s been a while since I’ve posted a blog so I thought I’d write something short and sweet today just to let you know I’m still here. I’ve been having a hard time dealing with this depression. There’s no real reason for it other than it’s simply a disease that I suffer with. My doctor is trying me on some new medication so I’m hoping that works. I haven’t been to bed in two nights. I can’t seem to get good sleep. Yet just a few days ago I was going through a spell that sleep was all I was doing. It’s crazy I go from one extreme to the other.

 

Anyway, one thing that I am pretty happy about is I found a new preacher that I’ve been listening to and I find him spot on. His name is Paul Washer and man is he good. He says it like it is. I needed to hear from this man. He put me in my place and I know now what I need to do. I need to get serious on serving God and seeking after God. Things aren’t going to change until I make the effort to seek after God and God reveals Himself to me. I have some hope that what this preacher was saying is going to work. I don’t know how long it’s going to take and I sure hope I don’t give up. Because I want to serve the God this man was talking about. This is the kind of Christianity that I want.

 

I got a new tattoo just the other day. It took two sittings over a week period. It is on my right forearm and it is the Last Supper. It’s an original drawing and it’s excellent. I’m very pleased with it. It takes up my whole forearm and of all my tattoo’s it was by far the most painful. It still hurts. But the guy told me it’s because I have such fair soft skin and it’s in such a tender spot but he assured me that it would stop hurting after about four days or so. If I knew how to imbed a picture into the blog I would but I don’t know how to do that, sorry. So I can’t show you. But trust me, it came out really very nice. I’m very pleased with it. Which is kind of good because I’m stuck with it for the rest of my life, LOL.

 

I really don’t have a lot more to say because the depression has really been playing a big role in my life and I don’t have anything exciting to write about. But I figured I best write something. I kept meaning to but I kept putting it off. You know how it is when you’re depressed. I try not to act depressed so most folks don’t know when I’m suffering. I’m very good at hiding it but people don’t know the hell that I go through on the inside. It’s horrible and I don’t wish it on anybody.

 

So I guess that’s about all I have for now. Short and sweet. But at least you know I’m still around. Hopefully I’ll get back into the swing of things soon.

 

So, for now…

Writing

04/09/2008

 

This will more than likely be a rather short blog. I just feel the need to set a few things straight. It seems the more I write and the more I post on bulletin boards the more I get myself into trouble. I am not a very good writer. I write like I talk which is not good because I do not convey what I mean in the written word as well as I do in the spoken word.

 

I went through graduate school and had problems because I always tend to go off on a tangent. I can get way off topic and get everyone including myself very confused at what I am talking about. My grammar skills are very poor as well. While I can do these things I tend to write very fast and I tend to give what I wrote a once look over then I post it. Very rarely do I correct what I have written because I know what I mean I automatically assume the reader knows what I mean.

 

I thank God that I had someone to help me out with my reports for grad school. He would edit my papers for me and tell me where I was going wrong and make me do it over and over again until I finally got it perfect. Nothing but perfect was acceptable. I knew this and I was able to do it after several attempts and with some help. But it didn’t stick with me. I am back to the poor writing again. I put periods and comma’s where they don’t belong and I don’t put them where they do belong. I make run on sentences and I have a lot of hanging participles.

 

I don’t know if I can change my writing style but I will like to try and at least improve upon it. It is frustrating when I get comments or what I said gets taken out of context. But yet I can see how easily that can be done by my poor writing. I think my biggest problem is punctuation. And the worst part of the whole thing is I can be good at it. I am very good at noticing other’s mistakes but I can never seem to see my own.

 

I do also have a bad habit of going off topic when I’m talking too. It seems I’ll end up somewhere that I have no idea what I’m talking about. Neither does the person I’m talking to. Or I switch topics in the middle of a conversation without warning and the person thinks I’m still on the first topic when I have already moved onto the next. I don’t know why this is or what it is called. I don’t know if it is a nerves response because I have a problem communicating with people for fear of saying the wrong things. Or if it is because I talk too fast or maybe my brain goes faster than the words come out. I really don’t know the reason I do it but I would like to try and stop doing it. Especially in this day and age of writing. Writing blogs writing posts and posting them. Like I said at the beginning what I say gets misinterpreted quite often and it gets very frustrating. When the solution is fairly easy if I would just sit back and take a little time and go over what I wrote with a fine tooth comb. I guess that is just being lazy, I don’t know.

 

So if you follow my blogs at all and you find that I have drifted topics you’ll at least know that it is a normal thing for me to do. Also if I’m writing a blog and I get way off topic and forget what I started talking about you can always leave a comment and say Corey you didn’t finish what you started. While I hate criticism, I hate being misinterpreted even more so. So if I ever write something that doesn’t seem to make much sense, please ask me about it. I’m quite sure that I can explain what I was talking about.

 

I like writing blogs and want to continue doing them. I also like posting on forums and want to continue doing that as well. But if I keep going at the rate I’m going I’m going to end up being banned from all the forums I belong to because I seem to always say the wrong things and get people pissed off. I am hoping that by writing blogs it will help improve my writing skills. I have no idea how I managed a 4.0 in grad school with such poor writing skills except for the help of one friend. He was persistent and didn’t take any excuses from me he would make me rewrite and rewrite until my paper was perfect. And I realize that is just something I’m not going to get from anybody just for writing a blog. So I’m going to have to learn to do it myself.

 

I am a very opinionated man and I always have a lot to say about any given subject that I am interested in. So I enjoy writing about things but once again I hate being misquoted or have my words taken out of context. So I am going to have to learn to write better. And as usual it’s late so I’m just going to post this without anything but a quick once over. So hopefully I have written a well blog. I tried to be careful because I knew it was late and I knew I wouldn’t spend the time going over it.

 

So, for now…