Isolationism

22 April 2009

Well here I am sitting in Panera’s writing the blog. I haven’t written a blog in a while and I thought this would be a good time to update.

I spend most of my time, I’d say 90-95% of my time, home alone. I very rarely mingle with folks. I have one real life friend. I go to church & Sunday school once a week. And I visit my parents almost every day (they live downstairs). Then the only other thing I generally do is go to the doctor’s.

Yesterday my doctor and I decided that this isolationism is getting way out of hand. While I am trying to find a job so I can go back to work. We aren’t sure if I will be able to handle 40 hours. But it’s what I want. So, my doctor wanted me to promise him that I would make myself go out and sit in the café for about an hour. Just have a cup of coffee. No need to mingle, no need to make friends, no need to interact. But to sit somewhere where there are other people and also to get out of the house. A change of scenery so to speak.

So, here I am. I made myself come here to Panera’s I have myself a cup of coffee and I’m sitting here with my computer. I thought this was as good a time as any to update my blog. It’s a short blog, but it’s an update none-the-less and it explains a little more about me.

We were talking about my fear of people and my fear of leaving the house. I cannot explain it and he wanted answers. I left there feeling a bit aggravated because I thought that was his job. I have no idea why I am an isolationist, I have no idea why I do not like to leave the house, but that’s what it is. I have been like this most of my life only since I’ve gotten older and once I got onto disability it has gotten worst. The only time I go out is when my friend calls me up and asks me to go. We either go to his house or we come here to Panera’s or go to Dunkin’ Donuts.

Anyway, so there you have it, my long overdue update to my blog. I guess that was one productive thing I’ve done while out. And my outing gave me an excuse to update the blog. I’ll try not to stay away so long in the future, I just really do not have a lot to write about so I never know what to say.

So for now…